14 months today, not a good day, feel like screamin, maybe i shud, dont think it will relive any of my sadness maybe jst the fustration, everythin seems so pointless without u. cant seem to feel positive or look forward to anythin at the mo. i know u will help me though, u hated me cryin, prob jst sick of listin to me lol. love u 4eva. xoxox